Valentines Day

Our day consisted of me having an interview [[cross fingers for me, it's not NYC but it will at least make me money finally as long as I'm stuck here in Bing]], Original Italian subs for lunch, Chuck E. Cheese for dinner and arcade games (because apparently the Triple Cities no longer has stand-alone arcades??!), and I Love You Phillip Morris at the Art Mission Theater.

 (with our tickets combined, we won a Toy Story Rex figurine and a few plastic rings).

Hope your day was full of smiles, and you didn't take yourself [or your significant other] too seriously; that's just not what the game is about.

Today I will:

- Upload Vday photos & share our night

- Update you on my hair changes

- Finish my 23 before 24 list, as it's over a month late now (but I have accomplished at least 1 of the bulletpoints...)

- Clean house.

- Take Swayze to the park for a really long walk

- Plan the cafe of my dreams. I'm hoping it makes me feel a bit more settled in my void right now.

I just want to stay busy because I feel sort of awful and stagnant and moody today.

I think if I keep moving, and stop long enough to come back here and check off my to-do list, I'll feel a bit more accomplished and a little less useless and lonely.

Few Things:

I have the most amazing nerdy art kid Valentines Day plans in the making. Someone's gonna be a lucky girl.

Bought ridiculously black hair dye - I have intentions to shake it up again. I always go back to red, and there's no doubt I'll be back there by summer, but the weather's got me feeling very punky, so I'm going Feria' box black, with Manic Panic purple low lights (I haven't bought the purple yet because the Sally's I stopped at didn't have the shade I want - must be patient). Pretty excited for the change. 

Swayze sits, gives paw, comes to where you point, and fetches on command. Such a proud mama. A good day starts with him chewing a bone while I drink my chai, do the wordfind & read the comics, and enjoy my morning internet routine for the hour of Ellen, and not interrupt. Today was an excellent day.

Figured out my size in men's jeans. Got a stellar pair of broken-in American Eagle men's lowrise straight leg for $6 at the Salvy today. They fit my hips perfect, run a little long, and are baggier than a woman's straight leg so they're perfect for lounging. Thrilled kid? You betcha.

And lastly - I have jumped ahead of schedule & applied to mall jobs. Here's to hoping for the best, I just need to save some money that I don't have. 

Hope you're all having a stellar February & aren't a regular popsicle like me.

I've made a decision.

A big one.

My life is at a stand still right now just waiting for people to call or email back, and when they don't, I'm just wasting time. 

Personal Deadline time:

February 18th - if I haven't been contacted on a serious note or offered a job, I'm going straight to the mall and applying to retail jobs. 

If I'm not actively working in the City before the end of February, I have got to suck it up, get a shit job to have a paycheck and save some money, and keep applying just to the "good" ones, rather than the everything I apply to these days. And I need the money because I'm dying for the new iPhone for Verizon. I've been waiting years for this.

April 20th - again, if I'm not in the City by now, I will be going to a couch and hoofing it through the City until someone, anyone, hires me. 

May of 2011 - I will be in the Big City. 

If I'm not, and I've saved the money, I'm going to California. Because I've never been, and you just never know, I may have been missing out this whole time.

So there. 

In the mean time, I'm dying my hair again & doing the job hunt like usual. 

And as long as I'm killing time in Bing, I need to get back at the gym. Must call Casey this afternoon...

Just a Few Things

Interview went.... quickly. Second shortest I've ever had. I hope on top of hope that I answered the questions with what they wanted. I was, however, humiliated when I pronounced his last name wrong. I sort of feel like that was a solid nail in my coffin. I also don't think I gave adequate insight into my personality when she asked me to "tell me a little bit more about myself." I didn't answer half as honestly as I would have in, say, the first day of class with a new professor sophomore year: "I'm Shanna, I love Andy Warhol, The Beatles, Ranch dressing, and Coca Cola. I shoot with Canon for digital and prefer toy cameras to actual "modern photography." I live and die for pop culture & I've recently started dating a woman."

No, no... I told her I recently graduated, some bullshit about my senior project, and how I've been running my own business since May. I hardly sound like someone fun I'd want to even hang out with, let alone hire. Fml.

Also, my pants and feet were frozen - I made a terrible decision of not wearing boots to the interview & instead chose sneakers. NYC happened to be under slushywater that day. Should have brought my snorkel too now that I think about it.

I'll hear back by tomorrow if they want me. I sent a thank you card, I hope it helps my odds. Seriously? I'd give my left arm (and that's the expensive tatted up one) for this opportunity.

Since then, I slept on my NYCboys' air mattress, accidentally got my heart set on moving across the hall from Tony, closed Berts for the last time, got to hang out with my Pretties for the first time in a long time, made a strawberry cake, missed out on a to-die-for pair of clearance boots at Burlington I had my eye on a week ago, had a dentist appointment to deal with my front teeth finally (and two days too late - super self conscious about it at my interview), drove my car into a snow bank and a mailbox in the frozen tundra of Central New York, got a receipt for donating to the Salvy for the first time ever, and made JiffyPop on the stove.

I'm super exciting. No wonder I felt so boring at my interview.